Love Rain (a cheesy post)

I'm done doing plates and projects last night. All I want is to pass it and then, I can be at peace.

A random thought of the Korean drama, Love Rain, immediately popped in my head after I panicked last night doing the plates of my "beloved" adviser.

I will begin through this image.

Now, I remember why I love in this drama because I rarely watch Korean dramas. I love it because of their quotes and understanding of what pure,sincere and innocent love is. 

I mean, nowadays, sincere people are very hard to find. Sometimes, they hide their sincerity because they are afraid that they can be taken for granted. 

Honestly, I hide my feelings because I'm afraid to be taken for granted.

Although the idea of love is beautiful, it has two faces- happiness and sadness (from Love rain again). For me, I remember mostly the sadness part of love. I have been hurt because of it in the past, but I have to let it go and move on. 

(And thankfully, I have.)

On the other hand, It is also my fault that I hide these feelings inside because I was too coward to say it or I was the type who is scared of a little leap of faith, an uncanny chance. I never liked being the first one who tells somebody that, "Hey! I like you a lot!." It would be weird and unnatural in my case.

Furthermore, I master the art of making my feelings not obvious to the public. I remember telling my best friends that I like someone and they react," Really?, Dili lagi obvious?." (Hahaha, In my mind, I fancy the public's naivety of who I really am.) Even though I make fun of the public in my mind, I am scared to let that someone know what I really feel because I might get the result of me engaging in a solo flight. 

In other words, I'm scared that I will get the result that the love is unrequited again.

Which leads us back again to the statement that I hide my feelings because I'm afraid to be taken for granted.

That's just about it, another cheesy post and I'm craving for an ice cream to help ease my depression.