I don't know what to think anymore but honestly, I know I am happy.
I am happy even though that I can just look at you from a distance.
I am happy for the first time that my heart fluttered again from being a cold and frozen desert.
It's weird. It's annoying.
It's irritating because I know that happiness has always a price of heart breaking sadness.
However, it is still nice.
It is nice that for once, I will look at a fantasy in the harsh reality I have always faced.
It is uplifting that I felt a little bit of it, even just a tiny piece, a little gesture of that emotion.
It is indescribable that even my words don't know how to express it.
Though I know that it is not mutual, I'm still at bliss.
Because I hoped for just a little bit of that emotion, and God gave it.
I am happy for once.
Even though deep in my heart, happiness has its return of sadness, that is life.
Life is unfair but its unfairness will always make one happy.
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